| Hello Xanga! Hahaha I almost forgot the password to this thing! It's been awhile since my last post huh? Well that must be a good news right? I don't usually have time to post unless I've got something on my chest. Lately, I've been pretty content with my life. I moved into a nice new house, settled in with the family, and am just feel so lucky! I still miss having someone to share my life with and it gets lonely sometimes, but I appreciate life again. Everywhere I turn God is part of my life. When I pick up the phone or meet someone I haven't seen in ages, somehow he always comes up. I'm not sure if I'm just being sensitive, but I know he's there everytime. Maybe I just never noticed. We can be so oblivious to the obvious when we're happy. The smallest things stand out. For example, I was helping a friend move out of her apt before she left for Taiwan. A mutual friend's mother came by to help. She was from Dallas and live in Austin. Nothing to do with God right? It turns out she had heard of Ascension and invited me and a couple to dance class on Thursday. Now I'm learning the swing every week at the Austin community center. It's been challenging since I have two left feet, but fun to turn left! Two of my friends just got in motorcycle accidents in the last month. The first had to get emergency spine, leg and facial surgeries. He can wiggle his toes! The second got away with minor injuries, just a few bumps and bruises and alot of skin of his hands, but he'll live. The bike I presume was totalled but I think thats the least of his worries for now. Both accidents was caused by a woman turning into them. I don't want to sound sexist, but out of all the stories I've heard. They've all been female drivers acting as the antagonist. Profiling may be cruel, but it works. Now everytime I see a cute girl driving...I speed up. Heads up to all my fellow riders. I love my job. I like the people I work with. I enjoy the daily challenges it brings. I like the learning opportunities. I just wish there was more pay, fewer shutdown (time off without pay), and promotions. I'm definitely alot more calm than I used to be. I have the Lord to thank for that. I've learned the meaning of "discretion" and "trust." I'd like to be a manager someday and test my leadership abilities, but I'm just not ready yet. I'm out of practice and I'm not sure I have the tongue for the politics. When you're in charge you have to live with every decision and there's no back-up when you make a mistake. They say the best lessons are learned the hard way, hopefully I get field tested before I'm deployed. I guess I'll never be ready but I'll damn well try to be. I love to smile. I love to laugh. I love to make fun and be made fun of. I was worried for a long time I wasn't being taken serious. They said I was too nice, I was too gentle. I took it the wrong way and made a fool of myself. For example, I acted tough when I shouldn't have. I had confidence when I was myself. I made all the right the decisions now that I'm looking at it all as an afterthought. I made the mistakes when I was angry and confused. I've learned a great deal and feel more confident now. There's still a long dark road ahead of me before I'll see the light, but I know that with every excrutiating fall, the pain is sharp but it always passes and the night is always just as dark right before the dawn. Like they said, 'what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger' (lol or it kills ya). sometimes you just have to look on the brightside, cuz when you look away you're blind to everything else HA! jking :) Anyway, better get back to it...still got alot of work...cheers folks! :) |
